My mask

So basically I'm coming clean today. Believe it or not my life isn't quite as perfect as my blog makes it out to be (close but not quite). This blog is kinda my happy mask that I hide behind well today I'm taking it off. Today pretty much just sucks. First of all my week has kinda been a sad week. Can't explain too much but today is the second anniversary of a very big day in my life but not necessarily a big happy day either. Happy in some senses but very hard in others. While it's been two years it still comes back to me and I can't help but feel a little somber. Some days I wish there was a memory eraser but then I feel guilty for ever thinking that. I don't know. I guess in an nutshell two years ago on this very day my life changed for the better but with that life change, a little piece of me left and that little piece will always be missing. It's a good thing but it's a hard thing and I guess what makes it the hardest is that at every new happy event of my life I expect that that piece that is missing will be replaced but it hasn't happened yet and I'm starting to doubt that it ever really will. I would never change this day two years ago but that doesn't make it any easier....

On top of this anniversary Nate woke up this morning to a 50 degree house. It was very cold! Why? Oh our heater is broken. Lovely. Now here I sit rescued by my Dad and brother who brought 4 little space heaters over this morning with our fire that has been on since 5:30 this morning trying to keep myself and two little girls warm. Not an easy task although it is now up to 64 degrees in my house. And on top of the heater being broken, mother nature has it in for us too. All I wanted today was for it to be sunny. When it's sunny it shines through our big living room windows and warm up the house into the 70's but no it's is not only not sunny it is snowing and windy which makes the house even colder thanks to a few bad seals.

But to end with one good thought we don't have to pay for it to get fixed the home warranty will:) YAY!